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[01 Mar 2008|08:28am] |
It only took me a month of job hunting before I got a job as a Flash/web developer for an insurance adjuster company called Brown O'Haver. I've just finished my first week.
It's full-time, 8-5. I was totally spoiled by my 5-hour days at college. ;_; When I mentioned this to my uncle, he said, "You'll get used to it.... Well, not really." @_@ Must start own business w/ passive income...
Tip for job-hunters wanting entry-level jobs: craigslist.org. Srsly.
I think the two guys involved in hiring me both thought the other had given me various significant info like work hours, salary, when you get paid (weekly? biweekly?), etc., and there wasn't really a tradition interview. Between my morbid shyness and my excitement of getting a job, I didn't ask. @_@ I just depended on my boss saying, "See you tomorrow" to know I was supposed to work the next day. It was a couple hours into my first day working before I was sure I was even hired. :o
Anyhoo. If anyone wants some porn, hurry on over to my mostly unused forum. The sub-forum that allows unregistered users to post is horrible for spam-bots, and I haven't visited in a while, causing over 1200 topics (1830 posts) of spam to accumulate--and they're mostly porn-related. I changed the posting permission to registered users only, and I'm going to try to delete it all, so get it before it's gone. XD
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[24 Feb 2008|06:08am] |
Well, college is over. Yay. Time to get myself a career. (*cue running around like headless chicken*) I ended up with a 3.52 GPA.
Also, I told myself after school was over I'd see about cutting my caffeine addiction. I can feel the withdrawal symptoms looming in just thinking about it... Wish me luck.
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[23 Jan 2008|12:34pm] |
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I FINALLY HAVE A DRIVER'S LISCNESED!!!!11 OMGWUEBITUWBLbrlllr#%@^aha122@ FREEEEEDOOOOOOM! Only four years late....
Except I still have no job = no money = living with Mom and what Mom buys = not so much freedom. But I can go to the library whenever I feel like it! :O
The career counselor at school had me apply to two jobs: an entry-level web developer at Blufish Design Studios and something making widgets and stuff for pYzam. I'm not sure I'm cut out for the pYzam job though; I don't keep up with what the youngsters think is cool ("sick"?) these days. e.g. What the hell is a widget???
You might be wondering, "Cyllya, now that you've put yourself sixty-five thousand dollars in debt to go to game design school, why aren't you trying to get a game design job???" Well, I think I'd like to continue making games as a hobby. (Total creative control FTW.) Maybe turn it into a small business down the line if possible. Game companies tend to make you work stupid hours, and there aren't many companies around here (read: continental United States) which make the kinds of games I'd have much fun making.
My little brother got a dog for Christmas, which he named Angel. She's a mutt, apparently part American Pit Bull Terrier and probably part Boxer. We got her from the pound, and she gave kennel cough to my Randi and Diamond. They're just now getting over it. -_- My little sister got an as yet unnamed white kitten that Diamond keeps trying to eat.
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[25 Nov 2007|11:28pm] |
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Have you ever stumbled across some baffling new generalization? I always (okay, okay, usually) dislike generalizations unless they come with a disclaimer pointing out that they are generalizations. (This is probably because I'm weird, so it's common for generalizations made about some group I'm in to be untrue of me.) But I have to admit that, while things like "Women are more nurturing," "Women are talkative," and "Women like to talk on the phone" are annoying when they're treated like the Law of the Universe, they make sense as far as generalizations go. I have heard of these ideas frequently before, and evidence I've gathered throughout my life suggests these statements are true more often than their opposites are true.
But I recently stumbled across two totally independent incidences that suggest it's considered shocking for a woman to make some creative work that involves a lot of blood and gore. I have never heard of this idea before! Pretty much everything I've ever written started writing has lots of violence, sometimes oodles of gore out the wazoo. Oodles! Probably because the work of fiction that got me interested in creating fiction in the first place was Animorphs--coincidently, also written by a woman! (BTW, the women that surprised these two people were the producer of the video game Assassin's Creed and the creator of the franchise-spawning manga Fullmetal Alchemist.) To me, this was like hearing someone say women don't eat pasta or something random like that. Where did it come from??? I've never seen a woman (or man) cite blood and gore specifically as a reason for disliking something (thought perhaps "action and violence = yawn") unless it was for their kids. Hmm. I wonder if it really is unusual?
Speaking of gore, FMA, and the opinions of moi, chapter 76 had a pole a few inches in diameter impaling a character's torso... and it was so beautiful. Also, it's apparently classified as "shounen," but it seemed pretty unisex to me. All the female characters are fairly badass (without looking like the author was trying too hard) and sensibly dressed, the male protagonists tend to be good looking, etc.
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[10 Oct 2007|02:55pm] |
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How do Britney and Lucas (younger cousins turned siblings, for the uninformed) manage to put me in such a homicidal rage? Especially Lucas. Just hearing them talk makes me want to punch them. GRR!
I've had to 'baby-sit' a lot since my step-dad left. Yesterday when she was driving me to school, Mom said she didn't think they'd actually done their homework (even though they claimed to) and from now on they weren't allowed to go out and play until she got home to judge whether or not they had. They had early release today and thus got home before Mom, so I told them they had to stay home, and...
Them: "But we don't have homework!"
Me: "Maybe if you weren't filthy liars, I'd believe you!"
Them: "But we dooooon't~!"
ARRRGH! I'd just called them liars and said I don't believe what the say, so why do they think saying it again will make anything happen in their favor?! I lost my temper and smacked them each upside the head. Then there was a very loud cycle of "BUT WE DOOOOON'T~!" "I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!" between Lucas and me.
Having lived under my step-dad's iron fist for years, I learned that screaming and violence are stupid and ineffectual foundations of child discipline. (Sure, it scares them into submission for a few years, but what happens when they're old enough to hit back? KERPOW! that's what!) But they just make me so angry that I never know what else to do. My knowledge that screaming and violence are useless and wrong just leaves me.
At this rate, Britney and Lucas are never going to respect me, just as I never respected my step-dad. Which is a shame because they really need another person they can respect. (Well, at least I'm better than my step-dad.)
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[30 Sep 2007|02:41am] |
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This was surprisingly easy to accomplish. All that was done today. I think it's because I wasn't supposed to be working on it.
I can't plan games/programs out very well. I'm still to much of a actionscript/programming n00b to know what I'm going to be able to do, so me trying to plan the program out in advance is like... trying to plan out building a house when you don't which ways you can piece the wood together. Or something. (I don't know anything about building houses.) So I kind of wrote myself into a corner on the action RPG I was making. (The one I started working on because I got bored of the Oregon Trail knockoff, which I started working on because I got frustrated with that platformer/ARPG, which I started working on to gain experience for the island-survival/adventure/village-building sim.) I think I need to recode it from scratch, or mostly scratch. So I got frustrated and started the Rocket Bee game mostly because I wanted to test how to make the bee rotate when moving up and down... >.>;;;;
Well, despite going to game design school, I'm surprisingly bad at designing games. So if anyone has any ideas for (a) more enemies (b) bosses (c) level backgrounds/environmental features (d) stronger limited-ammo weapons (e) etc, I'll see about implementing it into the final version of the game and I'll drop you a line in the credits.
Speaking of game design school, I graduate in five months and I've gotten good grades, and I still lack much in the way of any skills anyone in their right mind would hire me for. I guess I could laminate my bachelor's degree and have a nice $65k place mat... Or maybe I should be working on 3D modeling instead of flash games, since I could potentially get skilled enough in five months with lots of practice... hrmm....
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| Poor Randi |
[07 Aug 2007|11:44am] |
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No, I didn't successfully give blood. This time, my pulse was too high. I think everyone who can give blood should, but this is just a bunch of finger pain, arm pain, wasted time, and stress (I think all this trouble has made me almost develop a blood-giving phobia! ;_;), and the blood drive people waking me up early the next morning to make another appointment piss me off, so I officially give up until further notice.
Last night we discovered that my dog Randi had some kind of wound of on his neck near his cheek. When it didn't stop bleeding, we were worried the dumbass neighbor kid with a BB gun shot him, but Mom took him to the vet and it was some kind of rash or something that he'd irritated. He came home with five medications to take and one of those cone-shaped neck things to keep him from bothering it. Now he can't fit through the doggy door, he can't get a drink except by someone holding a small bowl for him, and he causes traffic jams in some of the narrower passageways in our house. And he's gotta wear it for five weeks. He's used to being healthy, so he probably thinks this really sucks.
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[01 Aug 2007|04:25pm] |
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I've made an appointment to give blood. Will it work this time?! The suspense is killing me. Which means the suspense itself is an obstacle. -__-;;;;;;;
Also progress?! NO WAI!
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[15 Jul 2007|06:50am] |
My dog Diamond is so fat... She got a hair cut yesterday (by a PROFESSIONAL! 'bout time, Diamond thought), and while previous haircuts have made her look thinner, this one made her look fatter. Poor thing, she doesn't eat very much, and she gets exercise in the backyard...
I wish I'd taken before/after pictures of her haircut though. :P
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[11 Jul 2007|08:34pm] |
Apparently "chr" and "name" are both AS2 keywords and thus "chrname" isn't a valid variable name! It worked fine after I changed it to charaname...
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[09 Jul 2007|09:45am] |
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var chrname:Array = newArray("Bob", "Beatrice", "Audrey", "Elmer", "Grace", "Russel");
trace(chrname[1]);
Why, Flash, are you outputting "undefined" in this situation? I don't understand...
Scripting woes aside, I'm thinking about taking art commissions... (Not requests, there's a difference. This one involves money.) Maybe I should start with only taking commissions of characters so I don't risk getting overwhelmed.... I wonder how much I should charge. It would be helpful to know how much time pictures take me but I always fail at timing myself. Maybe $30 for full-body color pics until I'm not a commission newb any more.
Anyway, I finished reading the manga Death Note (fan trans). It was neat. I like practically-realism-but-still-anime art style it had. I like Mello, in an "interesting to watch from a distance, but I wouldn't want to be in the same universe as him" kind of way. While I was looking at fan art, someone pointed out that in one of her music videos, Madonna looks like she's cosplaying as Mello. I don't normally care for Madonna one way or another, but since she has given me the mental image of Mello pole dancing......... I like Madonna.
While I was looking at information on that video to see if the resemblance to Mello was deliberate (never did find out for sure), I learned about parkour and free-running. Well, I'd seen it before (here), but I was unaware that it was an established art, like, with a name. Something you could learn. Now I want to learn how to do it, which seems possible since it seems to be something you teach yourself.... I need to get in shape first though. I have been exercising the last few days. My thighs hurt. That Madonna song is nice exercise music, and the video contains reminders of my motivation, so I'll watch it while exercising. It also makes the exercising less unpleasant, because watching Madonna dance cheers me up!
And as with the rest of my personal undertakings, start taking bets on how long before I lose interest. ^__^;;;;
How is parkour pronounced anyway?
My sleeping schedule lately has me getting up at 6:00 pm, but I have class at that time to night. It's noon, I should probably go to bed....
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[08 Jun 2007|07:16pm] |
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You know what two things totally don't mix? PMS and programming. And the feminists wonder why we get paid less. :(
My learner's permit expires in 12 days, I'm not allowed to renew it anymore, and I still can't park right. My mom wants me to take the driving test next week, but unless the test-giving person is sexist, I'm probably going to fail.
I'm taking 3D class. I have to model a still life with a table setting. I mentioned this to my mom... Ah, the joys of words with multiple definitions...
Me: "I have to model some silverware and stuff, so if you see me bring a fork in here to stare at, I'm not crazy."
Mom: "That's nice. You have to draw yourself holding a fork?"
Me: "No, just the fork. I need to make it in 3D."
Mom: "Oh. [She goes on to mention someone she knows who got a high-paying job as a graphic designer.] I wish I could afford to go back to school so I could get a job that paid that much."
Me: "Hmm. Maybe I could teach you how to model in 3D."
Mom: "No, my stomach's too big!" *sucks in tummy*
Me: "... No, Mom..."
Speaking of Mom, I bought her Guild Wars Factions for her birthday. I'm a little low on money, so I was only going to buy it if I could get it cheap. Indeed I found it for about $20 on the amazon marketplace! But I didn't realize until after I showed it to her and installed it on her computer that the seller had gipped me out of the code thingy needed to actually play the game. Amazon refunded my $20, but I had to pay $40 to buy the code elsewhere since I'd already given the gift. -_-;
Meanwhile, I'm still trying to accomplish things with Flash. Now, the thing about Flash is, it seems to make tons of sense, like it's one of the most logical things ever, totally no-nonsense, but it actually makes no sense. I keep thinking I understand it all and that I simply have to crank out the work, but then things don't go right. Still I'm convinced that it's only a matter of time and any day now something's going to click and I'll understand it for real and everything will start working right, and I'll be rich and famous! In the meantime, the fact that it looks so easy makes consistent failure that much more frustrating.
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[14 Dec 2006|05:55pm] |
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Last Saturday I went to the Unite Blood Services place in an attempt to give blood. Now, I've never been able to do this before for any of a variaty of reasons (sick, missed appointment, don't have blood to spare due to the time of month, ONE PERCENT below the minimum allowed iron amount, etc), but this time, everything checked out... and I just spontaneously got dizzy and lightheaded, dark vision and such. Now, it's not uncommon for this to happen after giving blood... but I hadn't yet. The small amount milked from my finger for the iron test was the only blood I lost.
How embarrassing.
Anyway, no blood giving for me that day either. I'm beginning to think some higher power doesn't want me giving blood or something.
Woah, I'd better stop talking about this, it's starting to happen again. o_o;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Anyway... I'm taking "interface component design" class now. We're learning Flash, which I have not touched before. And I'm blown away by one of its features. o_o "Trace Bitmap" can instantly turn (thick) unantialiased lineart into prettyful antialiased lineart. Like, woah.
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[18 Nov 2006|12:04am] |
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You know that Shania Twain song "No one needs to know"? That is so me right now. D:
It's damn near nine years late, but the full effect of puberty finally kicked in recently and I now have a huge crush on the cute waiter at the IHOP near my school. x.x;;; *didn't even catch his name*
I wish I could drive so I could go there every day between class and work* just to order coffee and give him 150% tips. D:
*yes, I finally got a job at school
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[30 Jul 2006|12:14am] |
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MY NEW WEBSITE IS FINALLY DONE! = http://art.cyllya.com
I tried to quicken my pace making it so that I could show it to the professor who wanted a link to my work. I didn't reply to his email when he asked since I thought I'd finish the site very soon (e.g. within a week). Turns out it took over a month and a half. I feel really stupid emailing him back now.... >_>;
I haven't had time to apply for a job at the school either.
Thing is... it seems like I should have time. I have, counting comute time, five and a half hours in school, only four days a week, plus eight ten hours of sleep... *does some math*... WHERE ARE MY OTHER 76 HOURS A WEEK GOING?!?!?!?!
Lately it seems like everything's going by so fast. :/ Maybe it's because I'm getting older, so a single day is becoming a smaller and smaller percentage of my total life? Maybe it's because my life is so easy right now (*guiltguilt*) and lacking any real hardships planned for my immediated future makes me feel all... immortal? ("It's kinda like if the holidays lasted forever, I'd never do my homework." -- Tales of Symphonia on why immortality is bad for a person.) Does anyone else have this problem?
I've thought about trying to improve my drawing but haven't actually done much. I did sign back up to Oekaki Central though, since I'm still proud of some of the work I did back then even though it's aged. Thing is, if I don't meet their three-star standards, it hurts my poor pride; thus it motivates me to not slack off on hard parts of pics. Hopefully I can reform good habits that will carry over to my other art. *will be drawing a lot of ToA advirtisements too >_>*
Meme wee (from Feria)
1. Comment and I'll tell you what fandom I associate with you.
2. I'll tell you what icon I see on my friends list and know it's you.
3. Post this in your own journal so I can see what you associate with me.
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| Unreal Fun |
[14 Jul 2006|08:15pm] |
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I got a B+ in my level design class, despite the crappiness of my final project. I guess I should be happy with that, but I wish I had done better.
Hmm, there's this project I've been thinking on but haven't actually worked on much because it's beyond my abilities. But 90% of the obstacle is out of the way now that I've realized I can make something in Unreal, screenshot it, and trace it to disguise my total inability to draw architexture! ^____^b
*tomatoes someone who yells "just get more practice lame-pot!"*
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[08 Jul 2006|10:33am] |
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Thought I'd take a quick break from wanting to strangle Javascript and/or my ISP and/or my webhost and post these two pics...
-Ninja meets Pirate meets Color-Blind Chloe Cosplayer - I realized why I have such trouble with cel-shading! It's 'cause I'm a highlightwhore. D: I'm used to highlighting every conceivable surface.
-Girl with Fluffy Bird Sidekick - I tried shading this in Photoshop and decided I like Photoshop over PSP for cel-shading. (Another pic I made after this made me realize I like it for variable-width lines too. But it's on my color-impaired laptop, so I can't put in base colors in PS. So now my CGing process involves a lot of computer-hopping. D:)
-Some Other Girl - Just a sketch 'cause I'm still working on the character design. I think she has too many different colors.
Figures now that I have something else I both need and want to work on (remaking website), I have an urge to draw stuff. Looking through all these pics of mine has made me want to remake some of them. Also, I'm rather dissatisfied with them as far as a portfolio goes. Most of what I consider my better pics are non-antialiased or otherwise unprofessional. D: And I went through a phase a while back where I'd draw every single scale on a scaled creature, and I feel like doing that again. Also, I feel like I need more non-fanart non-Hanetsuno pics. :O
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[06 Jul 2006|04:04am] |
Talk about an unproductive weekend. I got my website redesign to work somewhat, translated some stuff no one cares about... don't know where the rest of those five days went. D: And I forgot to put stripes on the bees of that website picture....
I did start playing SO3, even though I have too many games undone to be starting more. I wish it had a camera mode besides "Crazy Flip-Flop Queasy" Mode and "Stuff is Too Small to See" Mode. The game even admits those problems and asks you to pick the lesser of two evils in the battle tutorial. Jeez. D:
Anyway, since I noticed Feria and company liking it so much, I decided to download fansubs of this Ouran High School Host Club anime. I've watched the first four episodes, occassionally having those "OMGSOKAWAIIGAHH!!!1" spasms that the random female extras suffer from.
My final project (build a level in Unreal Editor) is due Tuesday. I was supposed to start last week. I started today. I should be working on it now, but I think I'll go rescue Nel instead.
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| Two Due |
[29 Jun 2006|12:06am] |
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Okay, here's my list....
( The List )
Ah, I have too much to do now~~~~ *panicpanic*
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